Yesterday was a big day for me. I spent most of it fasting and in prayer and casting protection spells. I hadn’t gotten any sleep due to being totally stressed out about all the possibilities running through my head that could happen should my stalker find me and my daughter.
The first thing I did was pray the Warfare Prayer. Then, I prayed the Armor of God prayer. After that, I made some coffee and rested for a bit. Yesterday was a day when I felt spiritually attacked pretty much all day. The negative thoughts about the person who is threatening me just would not go away. I would take one captive, push it away, ask the Holy Spirit to fill that space with positive, God-type thoughts and then another one would come. It was a rapid-fire brain assault. I broke down crying while I was making coffee feeling despair overwhelm me. The main thought that kept coming to my head was that I should give up because there was no way I would ever be able to win against him. After I dried my tears, I realized that that thought was nothing but him flinging his negativity at me and his evil spirits deviling me. Understand, I am not a devil-behind-every-door person. He has threatened to take my daughter from me and has threatened me personally, so, in this case, I believe that my assessment was spot on.
After I got myself together, I brought out my book of spells and found the prayer to St. Micheal the Archangel. It is basically a prayer of protection. You have to pray it in each of the four corners in each of the rooms in your house/apartment. Then you put salt on all the windowsills, doorways and under your bed.
Here is the prayer:
St. Micheal the Archangel, defend us (me) in battle.
Be our (my) protection against the wickedness and snares of the devil.
May God rebuke him we (I) humbly pray.
And do thou, O Prince of the Heavenly Hosts, thrust into hell Satan and all the evil spirits who prowl through the world seeking the ruin of souls.
After, I finished this, I then realigned my chakras. The meditation I did you can find here.
The negative thoughts continued for most of the day unabated. I battled and battled with them. A friend of mine I talked to yesterday reminded me to break the soul-tie between him and myself. She reminded me that that might be one of the reasons why I was feeling his negativity so strongly. I have broken soul-ties before, so I knew already knew how to do it. For those who are not familiar with a soul-tie, I will explain: A soul-tie is formed when two people become connected spiritually, emotionally, or physically. I always thought of it like this: When you connect with a person, a part of your soul stays with them and a part of their soul stays with you. That’s why it is so important to watch who you get close to. All people are not good and don’t have your best interests at heart. Everyone is at a different place in their lives and some people, quite frankly, are most interested in themselves, what they can attain and what they can get from you or what they can do to you. Suffice it to say, I was foolish for getting close to this person, but I have learned an important lesson and one that I’m not likely to forget.
This is how you break a soul-tie:
Think about that person and everything that you two have experienced together. Think about all your feelings toward that person and their feelings toward you. Basically EVERYTHING having to do with your relationship with that person. Focus on it and try not to get distracted. You are trying to repair your spirit and this is important business. Then pray:
In Jesus’ name, I break the soul-tie between myself and (name of person). Heavenly Father, I pray that you would heal my spirit and make me whole again. Blessed Holy Spirit, I pray that you would fill that space and heal my broken spirit. Jesus, please intercede for me with the Father so that I may be healed. I forgive (person’s name) for everything they have done to me. I pray this in Jesus’ name. Amen.
The prayer doesn’t have to go exactly like this. It doesn’t have to be word-for-word, but you have to do it in Jesus’ name. It’s Jesus’ power that breaks the bond, not yours. If you have had multiple partners and have never done this before, you may want to take a day or so and write down the names of who you have been with that you want to separate from. I had to do this in my twenties. It took several days and praying for God to help me remember the names. I also had someone with me who was more mature in Christ than myself. This person stayed with me and prayed with me to break the soul-ties. This is very advisable, for the Scripture says:
James_5:16 Therefore, make it your habit to confess your sins to one another and to pray for one another, so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person is powerful and effective.
Mat 18:18 “I tell you with certainty, whatever you prohibit on earth will have been prohibited in heaven, and whatever you permit on earth will have been permitted in heaven.
Mat 18:19 Furthermore, I tell you with certainty that if two of you agree on earth about anything you request, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven,
Mat 18:20 because where two or three have come together in my name, I am there among them.”
After I completed this, the attacks on my mind stopped. It was getting so bad that I couldn’t concentrate on anything.
Later that night, before midnight, I did a Protection and Binding spell to further protect myself from this person and to bind him from doing any harm to me or to anyone I love.
I got this spell from a Druidic High Priestess who has been practicing Druidism for twenty plus years.
Protection and Binding Spell
1. Black Candle or dark candle (There were no black candles at the store I was in so I got a black cherry one. It was the darkest one I could find. It doesn’t have to be expensive. A 99 cent candle will do just fine. Also, be sure to carve the name of the person you want to bind into the candle.)
2. Black or dark stone (I didn’t have a black stone on hand, but I had a brown one with red undertones, which I was told would work just fine.)
3. Sea Salt
4. White thread, yarn or embroidery yarn
5. Patchouli incense or white sage (I couldn’t find Patchouli incense or white sage, so I bought some that was sort of earthy smelling. It was similar to Patchouli.)
6. A picture of the person you wish to bind. (You need a picture or something of theirs. Something they owned.)
Twelve hours before you do the spell, put the stone and the salt in the freezer. The cold will cleanse them. Be sure to leave them there for at least twelve hours.
I did the ritual on the last night of the dark of the moon. The Priestess told me that this was a very powerful time and that it would not happen again for a couple of years. Also, that I needed to do the spell before midnight.
After the twelve hour mark and before midnight, get all of the ingredients together and place on a table. Use the salt and put down a salt barrier around yourself and the table. DO NOT BREAK THE CIRCLE ONCE YOU HAVE LAID IT. if you leave the circle or someone enters the circle you will have to start over.
Light your candle and light the incense. DO NOT BLOW EITHER OUT. They both must burn all the way down. If you are carving the person’s name in your candle, do it BEFORE you light it.
Once they are both lit, focus on a white light of protection around you so bright that it takes up the whole circle. So bright that when you open your eyes you have to squint. (What I did was imagine the light coming up from the salt forming a protective “bubble” around me. Then, I visualized my own light coming out of me and focused on making it really strong and bright.)
Then focus on the picture of the person you want to bind. Focus on their face and body and imagine jail or prison bars around them or something similar. (I took my finger *remember you can use your finger as a wand* and felt energy coming out of it and drew bars with my finger over his face and body. I drew so many that he was completely obscured.) You want to build a wall or a fortress around that person.
Then, call the corners (quarters). This is a really simple way to do it:
I call upon East, the direction of Air.
I call upon North, the direction of Earth.
I call upon West, the direction of my ancestors and Water.
I call upon South, the direction of Fire.
I ask that you aid me in these protection workings.
Then, call upon Kali (KAH-li) (If and only if you are binding a man. Kahli is the goddess and protector of women and hates men.) Ask her to aid you. This is where you have to improvise. I told Kahli that I was in fear for my life was being threatened and that I feared for my daughter as well. You must be especially gracious to her. She will hear you! Just tell her what is going on and why you are asking for and need her protection. This is my first encounter with her, but I got the feeling that we shouldn’t be asking her for frivolous things. If my life and my daughter were not being threatened, I don’t think I would have petitioned her. I could be wrong, but this was my impression of her.
Once that is done, take the picture and thread and wrap the thread around the picture until you can’t see any part of the picture. While you are doing this, say:
(Name), with the protection of Kali, you will not harm me or anyone I love.
MEAN IT WHEN YOU SAY IT!! Repeat this over and over until the picture is covered. (I wound up having to fold the picture several times because, as I wrapped it more and more with the thread, the picture would warp and was hard to handle. I figured it would be better just to keep folding it smaller, rather than creating frustration and losing my focus. Also, if I ever do this spell again, I’m getting white yarn. I had white sewing thread which was very hard to deal with and took a long time to cover the picture. The time wouldn’t have been an issue if my daughter hadn’t been awake, but she was and there is only so much time a two year old, even a well behaved two year old, can be still.)
Once that’s done, hold the bound picture in your hands for about five or ten minutes since you will likely be upset and nervous. (I wasn’t nervous, but I was angry. I was livid, so I had to take a few moments to regain my composure and to let the anger dissipate.) While you are holding the picture in your hands, focus on your child/children/home/yourself. Do the white light protection again.
Once that’s done, close the corners (quarters):
East, thank you for aiding me tonight. Go if you must. Stay if you will. Hail to you and farewell.
North, thank you for aiding me tonight. Go if you must. Stay if you will. Hail to you and farewell.
West, thank you for aiding me tonight. Go if you must. Stay if you will. Hail to you and farewell.
South, thank you for aiding me tonight. Go if you must. Stay if you will. Hail to you and farewell.
It is most important to say a gracious thanks to Kali. Bid her sincerest thanks and fare thee well. Tell her to go or stay, but that you would prefer she watch over you as long as she deems necessary.
Once, all that is done, you can break the salt barrier. Put the binding somewhere in a box and seal it. Put it high up where it CANNOT BE TOUCHED.
After the binding is secured, then you need to put the stone somewhere that you can keep it on you at all times. Then, take at least a fifteen minute sea salt bath to cleanse your body of any negativity. After that, you will sleep like a ROCK.
If you have a sachet, put the stone in it and keep it under your pillow at night. During the day, keep it on you at all times. Put it in your pocket; on a chain; put it into a ring. Just keep it on you.
DO NOT BLOW THE CANDLE OUT. LET IT BURN ALL THE WAY DOWN.
I had to start and stop this spell about four times because my daughter kept walking into the circle. I would thank the spirits profusely, apologize profusely and tell them that I would have to come back to them later. I got my daughter calmed down, since she was crying pretty hard (It’s hard to explain things like this to a two year old. She just knew she wanted to sit in my lap and didn’t understand why she couldn’t. So I let her sit in my chair, turned on cartoons, gave her some soda, <which she never gets>, her teddy bear and some snacks and she was set.) and eventually, by telling her that she could help me do the spell, I was able to get back to it.
After the spell was finished, I cleaned everything up and took the bath. About thirty to forty five minutes after that, the tiredness hit me. It wasn’t just a tired like I had been at work all day and needed to crash. It was a bone tiredness. I felt tired like I did after my dad died and after I had given birth and spent two weeks in the NICU with my daughter. I was tired physically, but moreso, I was tired spiritually. I put my daughter to bed and fell into bed. I didn’t even dream.
Today, I woke up feeling weak and shaky. I tried to bolster myself with coffee, because I was scheduled to go on a job interview this afternoon, but it didn’t work. I had to reschedule. I’m pretty stubborn, so I had already fixed my hair and makeup, dressed myself and my daughter before I gave in and realized I would never be able to pass the skills tests they had scheduled for me. I was frustrated and disappointed, but I figure if the universe wants me there, I will be. If not, then not. I’m done trying to swim upstream and trying to force the square peg into the round hole.
Merry Part and Blessings Be!