On Managing Emotions and Why I Did Not Participate in the Hexing/Binding Ritual Against Donald Trump

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Regarding managing emotions, I count myself among many other people who struggle with this particular part of life. I had a graphic that I was going to post, but it seems as though it has gone missing along with so many other things I can’t seem to find in my house when I need them.

Anyway, the graphic goes something like this: As human beings we are vessels filled with all kinds of emotions, which is a good thing, in my humble opinion. It is the way we express our emotions and whether or not they are appropriate at the time/place we express them is the issue of the graphic.

An example: A parent with a 5-year-old child attempts to reason with their child about an action they have taken which the parent considers to be wrong (dragging the cat by one leg across the floor or by the tail; shouting at parent or other children; hitting or otherwise hurting another child are some examples of this). Of course, the child will be automatically on the defensive when/if the parent confronts the child about this behavior. The parent, in this instance has to choose what kind of emotion to display to their child: outright anger, which may lead to punitive punishment(s) or patience and calmness leading to a dialogue with the child which is done on their level of understanding so that the child understands that whatever action they have done was wrong and ways to figure out how to not make that mistake again. A parent may think that when this dialogue is done that their child understands and that the issue is done and that the child won’t make that same mistake again, however, that parent would be wrong. Studies have shown that the frontal lobe of the brain, which is the place where impulsiveness and understanding of the consequences of our actions live, does not fully mature until the mid- 20s. Here is a link to an MIT article explaining how this works. If and/or when the child repeats the same mistake over and over again can make the parent extremely frustrated and angry and this anger my overtake any previous ideas of speaking calmly with their child. The parent may resort to outright punishment (this may include time outs, spankings, or escalations of any kind of violence towards the child). (My belief is that any kind of violence towards a child, even spanking, is sort of a “gateway” to more and more mistreatment of the child. This is why I choose not to spank. I used to use time-outs, but that just fostered emotional distance between myself and my child. So, now, we use “time-ins” where we both sit quietly for about 5 minutes and talk about what we are feeling and what we can do that can further a healthy relationship between ourselves. Also, we discuss what behavior is inappropriate and what is appropriate depending on the circumstance. Always remembering to speak to my child in way that she can understand. Otherwise, I’m just speaking into the air, which provides further frustration for me and my child.)

Before any violence or yelling takes place towards the child (or any other person an individual may be having problems with), it behooves the person who is trying to manage their emotions in a healthy way to stop and take a breath or even walk away for a few minutes to try to get some perspective on what is really happening instead of having a knee-jerk emotional reaction. I’m not saying that emotions are bad. We were given emotions for a reason and in the right time and place,displaying one’s emotions is great and appropriate. For instance: I can’t watch two people get married, whether is man/woman, man/man, woman/woman or any other kind of marriage without tearing up a little or outright crying. It’s not that I’m sad. I just feel so happy at weddings and that is the way my emotion at that time is displayed and I feel that this is appropriate as long as I don’t go into some kind of loud wailing or do something else to take attention off the wedding and onto myself. That would be totally inappropriate.

Mostly the emotion I’m speaking of here is anger, but this can also be applied to thoughts which take us down the spiral into depression. When I worked in a Christian street ministry and taught bible study, I referred to this as “taking every thought captive to the obedience of the Christ” (2 Corinthians 10:5) Even though, at that time, I used this method in a bible study setting it does apply to every day life even if one does not espouse the Christian faith. When a thought comes along about my past, for instance, I can choose to either entertain that thought or cast it aside and opt for a more positive and/or more healthy thought pattern. Sometimes we choose to wallow in depression. I can’t say that I haven’t done this. I have. I tend to have the most trouble with this at night after my daughter has fallen asleep. Since I don’t have anything to distract me, it’s easier for those damaging thoughts to creep in. Again, the challenge here is to choose which thoughts to entertain. This can be a very hard process and it takes some time for a person to recognize certain thoughts as damaging and/or unhealthy before that person can begin to stop the cycle and take hold of their thoughts and choose to move toward a healthier place mentally and emotionally.

I am challenged with this on a daily basis several times a day. It so happens that my biggest challenges are dealing with anger, depression and anxiety. I want to model healthy behavior for my daughter, but am not always successful. So when I am not, I have made it a priority to try to explain to her, in a way that she can understand, that I am sorry for my bad/inappropriate behavior and that I will do my best to get better.

I don’t think I’m alone in struggling with this. In my humble opinion, managing one’s emotions is one of the things our society as a whole is seriously lacking. We don’t have very many models to go by. In our culture of instant gratification, if we (as a collective) perceive that we are not getting what we want we tend to lose our collective shit and jump right over the fence into proverbial left field.

This brings me to Donald Trump. This person is not a good model for managing emotions. He displays such a lack of emotional control that he can seem to be petty and childish at times. I don’t watch him speak very often as I try to stay away from the “news” because it depresses me, but seriously, my five-year-old has better control of her emotional outbursts.  I’m not going to get into Trump-bashing, but suffice it to say: I did not vote for him.

A few days ago, on February 4th to be exact, there was a call for all witches or anyone who practices the magickal arts to perform a hexing and/or a binding on Donald Trump. I did not participate in that and here’s why.

  1. I subscribe to the belief of the universal law of “3 x 3”. Meaning, whatever energy you put out you get back times three, be it positive or negative. I don’t believe in “black” or “white” or “gray” magick. I believe it is the intent of the person performing whatever spell or ritual is done that makes it either dark, light or gray. Everyone has some darkness, some light and some gray areas. So again: intent is what matters here. If I had done a hexing or binding on Donald Trump, I would have invited that energy to come back and basically punch me in the face. Hard.
  2. I recently learned, after performing many binding spells, that whatever you bind is bound to you. A few years ago, out of desperation and fear for my life, I performed a binding ritual with a mirror or “bounce back” effect in it. Meaning that I bound the person from hurting me or my child and should that person attempt any harm towards me or my child that all the energy that was put into those actions or thoughts would, in effect, “bounce back” on that person. It’s sort of like a hex, but not overtly so because it all depends on how much negative energy that person puts out towards the caster of the binding spell. Now, after about 4 years, I realize that this person hardly ever leaves my thoughts. The hard part is that I do not want to think about this person, because I don’t want to draw that person’s thoughts towards me or my child. After some serious meditation on this issue and doing some research, I realized that as long as I keep this person bound with the spell, this person is bound to me because of the spell I did. I think it goes without saying that I do not, in any way, wish to bound in any sort of fashion (spiritual or otherwise) to Donald Trump. So, I left that alone.
  3. Whether for good or ill, Donald Trump is our president now. I believe that if he wasn’t meant to be in that position for some reason or other, that he would not be there. I don’t believe in coincidences or “luck”. I believe everything happens (or doesn’t happen) for a reason. I may not always understand that reason, but I don’t want to mess with what the universe has planned for Donald Trump. Also, and this may sound like it came directly from my mother, I believe that very soon he will have enough rope to metaphorically hang himself. I prefer to let him make his own messes and lie in his own bed rather than call on the spirits to do it for him. Again, I don’t want that energy to come back at me. I’m not judging anyone who participated. I think people, in general, should have the freedom to follow their beliefs. I follow mine. You follow yours. Live and let live.
  4. Finally, I don’t wish Donald Trump or his family any harm. I will, however, stock up on popcorn in anticipation of the day he makes his bed and then has to lay in it.

Binding Freezer Spell To Keep Someone From Hurting You Emotionally/Mentally/Verbally

What You Will Need:

1. A piece of white cloth or a piece of white paper.

2. A pen, any color.

3. White yarn or thread.

4. A waterproof freezer bag (ziploc).

5. Water (tap water is fine).

6. A Bible.

When: You can do this spell anytime, but I recommend doing it on the full moon for best chance of the most power.

Doing The Work:

1. Cast a circle. You can do this with a wand or your finger. You can simply point your finger/wand to the floor/ground and “draw” a circle and pentacle while visualizing them.

This is the spell for casting a circle that I used:

Visualize yourself in the middle of your cast circle and pentacle and with three rings of purple light around me: one at your feet, one at your waist and one at your head. You can also cast your circle with salt if you so choose. Try really hard not to break the circle once you have cast it. I have a toddler, so I have to do my spells when she is asleep otherwise she will break the circle unintentionally. The spirits will understand if the circle is broken in this way, but if you do break it accidentally, you must explain to them why you did it and apologize to them. Then you have to start again.

Say this:

Protect me with all your might oh goddess gracious day and night.

Protect me with all your might oh goddess gracious day and night.

Protect me with all your might oh goddess gracious day and night.

So mote it be.

By dragon’s light this (insert month) January night I call to thee to give me your might.

By the power of three I conjure thee to protect all that surrounds me.

So mote it be.

So mote it be.

So mote it be.

(Now point wand/finger to the sky)

Terra, Ignis, Aqua all three.

Elements of astral I summon thee.

Earth by Divinity.

Divinity by Earth.

Give my enemy the power to see the strength of the elements by my side.

No rules magic I shall abide.

Now when My enemy meets his downfall this spell shall have no power at all.

In no way shall this spell reverse or place upon me any curse.

So mote it be.

(now lower wand/finger)

2. Write the person’s name on one side of the paper in big bold letters.

3. Around that person’s name, write what you want to bind them from doing. For instance, if they are verbally abusing you, you could bind them from speaking hurtful and abusive words to you. Here’s what I wrote when I did the last one: “<person’s name>, I bind your tongue in Jesus’ name from speaking hurtful words, lies and gossip. I bind you in Jesus’ name from doing any harm to me or to anyone I love.” Keep writing what you want to bind them from all down the paper until the paper is full. (While you are doing all of this, focus all of your energy regarding that person into what you are writing. MEAN IT.)

4. Turn the paper over. On the other side of the paper, write Psalm 130 from the Bible.

5. Fold the paper into a small square.

6. Use the white yarn/thread to wrap the folded square of paper until you can’t see the paper anymore while chanting: “<person’s name>, I bind you in Jesus’ name from doing any harm to me or anyone I love”. Keep wrapping and chanting until you cannot see any of the paper.

7. Put the yarn/thread wrapped square of paper into the waterproof freezer bag.

8.  Close the circle and thank the spirits for attending you and send them on their way with blessings. You can also tell the spirits to stay or go as they wish, but make sure to thank them politely for attending you. (Personally, as I was telling the kind spirits my thanks and letting them know that they could either go or stay, I asked them if they would stay as long as they felt my daughter and I needed their protection. I do this with most all of my protection spells. However, you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to.)

Close your circle by saying this:

Thrice around the circles bound sink all evil to the ground.

Thrice around the circles bound sink all evil to the ground.

Thrice around the circles bound sink all evil to the ground.

So mote it be.

8. Fill the bag with water.

9. Put the bag in the freezer and leave it there.

If the person you are binding is still abusing you a few days after this spell, you can do it again. Keep in mind, a spell is only as powerful as the energy of the person casting it. So, you must put forth all of your energy and focus into the spell if you want it to be at it’s most effective.

Dream of the Conveyor Belt of Body Parts and Yoda On A Shoulder

Last night, I dreamt that I was in a factory of some kind. I was standing in front of a conveyor belt where there were passing in front of me the lower torsos of women. They were upside down as if they had been cut in the midsection and flipped upside down so that they could fit neatly on the conveyor belt. Every one of the lower torsos had had their genitalia removed. Their legs were moving around wildly as if they were still connected to their bodies. What I saw between the legs looked like butchery. It was all blood dripping and wiggling legs.

In the other part of my dream, I was in a dry desert area. A very large man was standing in front of me with a person sitting on his shoulder facing backwards. This person looked like Yoda. The Yoda person was speaking to me about universal spiritual truths and a bible based on the Star Wars philosophies.

 

The Modesty Doctrine

On the surface, what this woman says sounds well, rational. As a person who has come from a fundamentalist Christian background, it sounds very familiar to me and, actually, I had to catch myself in the middle of watching it to ask myself some very important questions.

1. Instead of subjecting men to visual stimuli of women in bikinis and measuring their brain activity why don’t we teach them how to not overly sexualize women and girls?

2. Do we not all deserve respect simply for being made in the image of God no matter what we wear?

3. Where is the male responsibility in this modesty doctrine? Are we supposed to relegate all males to the status of slathering beasts who can’t control themselves under any circumstances?

4. How is a man supposed to function sexually within marriage when all of his life, he has been programmed to fear and hate women?  If all of his life, he has been told that he is under a constant barrage of attack from women who are tempting him, he learns to fear them because he is supposed to keep all sexual urges out of his mind in order to be godly. At the same time, doesn’t he learn to hate women simply because he sees them as a threat to his godliness? If women lead him to sin via lust and immodest dress, doesn’t he then begin to see them as the cause of his sin? He would go from a lifetime of “no” to a big “yes”. He would be expected to perform sexually at least to produce offspring. What if he can’t get past his fear and hate? What happens then?

5. What happens to girls who become women within this doctrine? Because they are set aside as objects of fear and hatred, do they then learn to fear and hate themselves? And again, how are they supposed to function sexually within a marriage if all they know is that they are supposed to fear and hate their own bodies? If one of these women then gets raped or beaten by her husband, will she think it’s her fault for dressing too immodestly or adorning her hair or walking to proudly? This is Rape Culture 101.

6. What happens to those in this doctrine who are gay/lesbian/transgender/gender neutral/gender queer/bisexual? How must it feel to be told every day that you are an abomination in the sight of God and that there is no place for you in this world? There is no place for these people in the modesty doctrine.

I would suggest that instead of trying to keep women’s sexuality under control that we let people wear what they feel most comfortable in and learn to see them for what they really are: beautiful spirits who happen to be encased in flesh. I think that we should teach that sexuality and sexual attraction is normal and natural. If you happen to be attracted to someone, instead of fearing it, you can instead process it as just a part of your day and move on. Instead of focusing on sexuality as the “demon” that we focus on things that are more pressing like feeding the poor and housing the homeless.

Finally, if you look for a demon behind every bush, you will find one. Alternately, if you look for God and His divine nature within people, you will most certainly find it. It’s all a matter of focus and perspective.

James 1:27  A religion that is pure and stainless according to God the Father is this: to take care of orphans and widows who are suffering, and to keep oneself unstained by the world. ~International Standard Version

The Daily Affirmation of Faith

This is an affirmation of faith based on scripture. It is very helpful in attempting to determine which area (s) of a person’s life (or your own life) are subject to demonic activity. If they stumble, stutter, freeze up, start crying, get distracted, get scared, laugh or display any other aversions to speaking the affirmations of faith then you can be fairly sure that there is something going on in that area of their life. That being said, you cannot force anyone to do something they don’t want to do. If a person says they are not ready then you must take them at their word and just keep praying for them until they are ready.  I am not a “devil behind every bush” person, but I won’t deny that they are present and seek to destroy people and their lives and families. I have first hand experience in this. I have included the scripture references in case anyone needs them.

Today I deliberately choose to submit myself fully to God as he has made Himself known to me through the Holy Scripture. In this day I will not judge God, his work, myself or others on the basis of feelings or circumstances.

1. I recognize by faith that the triune God is worthy of all honor, praise and worship as the Creator, Sustainer and End of all things. I confess that God, as my Creator, made me for himself. In this day I therefore choose to live for Him. (Revelations 5:9; Isaiah 43:1, 7, 21; Revelations 4:11)

2. I recognize by faith that God loved me and chose me in Jesus Christ before time began. (Ephesians 1:1-7)

3. I recognize by faith that God has proven his love to me in sending His Son to die in my place, in whom every provision has already been made for my past, present and future needs through His representative work, and that I have been quickened, raised, seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenlies, and anointed with the Holy Spirit. (Romans 5:6-11; 8:28-39; Philippians 1:6; 4:6-7, 13, 19; Ephesians 1:3, 2:5-6; Acts 2:1-4, 33)

4. I recognize by faith that God has accepted me since I have received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour; that He has forgiven me; adopted me into His family assuming every responsibility for me; given me eternal life; applied the perfect righteousness of Christ to me so that I am now justified; made me complete in Christ; and offers Himself to me as my daily sufficiency through prayer and the decisions of faith.  (John 1:12; Ephesians 1:6; Ephesians 1:7; John 17:11, 17; Ephesians 1;5; Philippians 1:6; John 3:36; 1 John 5: 9-13; Romans 5:1; 8:3-4; 10:4; Colossians 2:10; 1 Corinthians 1:30; Colossians 1:27; Galatians 2:20; John 14:13-14; Matthew 21:22; Romans 6:1-19; Hebrews 4:1-3, 11)

5. I recognize by faith that the Holy Spirit has baptized me into the Body of Christ; sealed me; anointed me for life and service; seeks to lead me into a deeper walk with Jesus Christ; and to fill my life with Himself. (1 Corinthians 12:13; 1:13-14; Acts 1:8; John 7:37-39; John 14:16-18; 15:26-27; 16:13-15; Romans 8:11-16; Ephesians 5:18)

6. I recognize by faith that only God can deal with sin and only God can produce holiness of life. I confess that in my salvation my part was only to receive Him and that He dealt with my sin and saved me. Now I confess that in order to live a holy life, I can only surrender to His will and receive Him as my sanctification; trusting Him to do whatever may be necessary in my life, without and within, so I may be enabled to live today in purity, freedom, rest and power for His glory. (John 1:12; 1 Corinthians 1:30; 2 Corinthians 9:8; Galatians 2:20; Hebrews 4:9; 1 John 5:4; Jude 24)

Having confessed that God is worthy of all praise, that only God can deal with sin and produce holiness of life, I again recognize my total dependence upon Him and submission to Him. I accept the truth that praying in faith is absolutely necessary for the realization of the will and grace of God in my daily life. (1 John 5:14-15; James 2:6; 4:2-3; 5:16-18; Philippians 4:6-7; Hebrews 4:1-13; 11:6, 24-28)

Recognizing that faith is a total response to God by which the daily provisions the lord has furnished in Himself are appropriated, I therefore make the following decisions of faith:

1. For this day, I make the decision of faith to surrender wholly to the authority of God as He has revealed Himself in the Scripture-to obey Him. I confess my sin, face the sinful reality of my old nature, and deliberately choose to walk in the light, in step with Christ throughout the hours of this day. (Hebrews 3:6, 13, 15; 4:7; Romans 6;16-20; Philippians 2:12-13; 1 John 1:7, 9)

2. For this day I make the decision of faith to surrender wholly to the as revealed in the Scripture-to believe Him. I accept His word into my heart and mind. I now believe that since I have confessed my sin He has forgiven and cleansed me. I accept at full value His Word of promise to be my sufficiency and rest and will conduct myself accordingly. ( 1 John 1:9; Exodus 33:1; 1 Corinthians 1:30; 2 Corinthians 9:8; Philippians 4:19)

3. For this day I make the decision of faith to recognize that God has made every provision so that I may fulfill His will and calling. Therefore, I will not make any excuse for my sin and failure. (1 Thessalonians 5:24).

3. For this day I make the decision of faith deliberately to receive from God that provision which He has made for me. I renounce all self-effort to live the Christian life and to perform God’s service; renounce all sinful praying which asks God to change circumstances and people so that I may be more spiritual; renounce all drawing back from the work of the Holy Spirit within and the call of God without; and renounce all non-biblical motives, goals and activities with serve my sinful pride.

4. I now sincerely receive Jesus Christ as my sanctification, particularly as my  as my cleansing from the old nature and ask the Holy Spirit to apply to me the work of Christ accomplished for me in the crucifixion. In cooperation with and in dependence upon HIm I obey the command to “put off the old man”. (Romans 6:1-4; 1 Corinthians 1:30; Galatians 6:14: Ephesians 4:22)

5. I now sincerely receive Jesus Christ as my sanctification particularly as my enablement moment by moment to live above sin and ask the Holy Spirit to apply to me the work of the resurrection so that I may walk in newness of life. I confess that only God can deal with my sin and only God can produce holiness and the fruit of the Spirit in my life. In cooperation with and in dependence upon Him, I obey the command to “put on the new man”. (Romans 6:1-4; Ephesians 4:24)

6. I now sincerely receive Jesus Christ as my deliverance from Satan and take my position with Him in the heavenlies asking the Holy Spirit to apply to me the work of the ascension. In His name I submit myself to God and stand against all of Satan’s influence and subtlety. In cooperation with and in dependence upon God I obey the command to “resist the devil”. (Ephesians 1:20-23; 2:5; 4:27; 6:10-18; Colossians 1:13; Hebrews 2:14-15; James 4:7; 1 Peter 3:22; 5:8-9)

7. I now sincerely receive the Holy Spirit as my anointing for every aspect of life and service for today. I fully open my life to Him to fill me afresh in obedience to the command to “be filled with the Holy Spirit”. (Ephesians 5:18; John 7:37-39; 14:16-17; 15:26-27; 16:7-15; Acts 1:8)

Having made this confession and these decisions of faith, I now receive God’s promised rest for this day. Therefore, I relax in the trust of faith knowing that in the moment of temptation, trial or need the Lord Himself will be there as my strength and sufficiency. (1 Corinthians 10:13)

~Mark I. Bubeck-The Adversary: The Christian Versus Demonic Activity

Nightmares and Out of Body Experiences

The night before last, I fell asleep after having prayed and “hedged” myself with protection. I have had to do that every night since the early nineties, otherwise, I am plagued by nightmares and not just any old nightmares like running from the neighbor’s angry dog. My nightmares are vivid, technicolor, very dark, and very insidious. They usually involve me being attacked in some way by a demonic force.

I remember this happening since my childhood. Sometimes, I would have nightmares and wake up feeling like I had had intercourse, but knowing that I had not. I have woken from nightmares smelling foul odors like rotting flesh and have felt things crawl over me. I have also woken from nightmares and felt dark presences with me. I have even seen a figure sitting on a bed across from me who was shaped like a person, but was a black shadow sucking in all the available light.

When I began to hedge my sleep in my early twenties, these things began to happen with much less frequency. For the first time in my life, I was able to sleep soundly and without waking up terrified several times a night. I have done it for the majority of nights ever since. I rarely get nightmares and/or night time visitations anymore.

I have been having them again recently. The first was a couple of weeks ago. I will describe it here:

I was in a morgue-type setting. It was chilly. Everything white, bright and cold. I saw a nude female body on a slab in front of me. She had long, blonde hair which was matted with blood and dirt. Her body was twisted in such a way that she was laying partially on her side. She was cold and stiff with rigor mortis. The next thing I saw was her back. Someone had carved into her back the word “whore” over and over again. It was there so many times that there was hardly any place on her back where there was skin that was not carved. My eyes moved down her back to her buttocks and I noticed that her legs were spread apart vulgarly. I saw that where her genitals and anus had been that there was only one big hole: gaping, shredded and bloody. I knew in my heart that she had been raped repeatedly over a long period. The next thing I noticed were her thighs. Someone had made a deep cut from her crotch to her knee on the inside of both thighs. The cuts were so deep that I could see the layers of skin and fat all the way down to the bone. The cuts had then been sewn loosely with black thread in a cris-cross pattern that reminded me of corset laces.

Update: (February 13, 2014) I did some researching and found out that, according to Jungian psychology, seeing yourself dead in a dream can mean that a part of yourself is dead or dying and that you are moving on to something better or something positive. It could be that the woman on the slab in the morgue was a representation of my old self. How I used to see myself. Now that I am moving forward spiritually, emotionally and in my physical life she could be a representation of the negative things I’m leaving behind. Originally, I thought that the reason I dreamt that was that the person who is working against me felt such negativity towards me that he projected it on me and it manifested itself in my dream. This also could be the case since I have .been dealing with a lot of negative energy from him recently. He is one of those really bad people I got involved with during the last self destruct spiral I experienced due to the loss of my fiance.

That is the extent of that dream. I woke up very disturbed. The feeling of being ill at ease stayed with me for a few days. I had another dream that night, but right now, I can’t remember what it was.

The night before last, I had another bad one:

I dreamt that I was searching for a man.

I remember someone in the dream, who wasn’t physically present, say that this man had killed forty eight people. I went into this man’s house. I think I was on a ghost hunt, because I remember feeling strongly that he was a spirit and that he didn’t like his possessions, which were still in the house, moved.

I don’t remember entering through any kind of doorway. I just remember being there. I was standing in a darkened hallway and reached out to flip the light switch. It came on but only dimly and flickered. I remember knowing my way around this house like I had been there before. My favorite shawl was even hanging on a peg in the hallway. I remember this because I took it off the peg and put it on.

I knew where to reach out for the light switches even though I was mostly in the dark. I turned around to see a room on my left. I did not want to go in there because it was dark and the actual light switch I knew was all the way across the room, but I knew there there was a pull string to turn the light on so I pulled it, but it never came on.

I was terrified, but I turn back down the hallway and saw a room to my right. I KNEW that if I went in there that I would be in more danger and I knew that there was a light switch right inside the doorway, but I didn’t even stick my hand in there. I continued down the hallway and went through an open doorway and  up about three steps into a living room area that was very dimly lit. I really really wanted to get out of the house, but I happened to look into a room around the corner and to the left of the living room and saw a demonic face looking back at me smiling. It was so scary. I then was back in the living room area frantically searching for the front door. There was a fireplace directly across the room that I thought was the front door, but I was mistaken since was so frightened that I became confused and felt like I was spinning in circles and dizzy. I finally managed the front door and go outside.

Once outside, there was an animal with me that first appeared to be a cat. I walked down the walkway from the house to the street where I saw other houses. It was a residential neighborhood and, of course, it was dark out. I turned right and started walking up the side walk when I saw what appeared to be two or three children on the other side of the street walking towards me. As I walked they kept getting closer. As they got closer, I saw that they had no faces and that the one in the front was eating something that looked like a small leg, but again, I could see no mouth. They looked like shadows. Whatever light was around them was sucked up by them as they moved.

They started running towards me and I started running away from them, but I didn’t turn around. I ran backwards, or rather, I floated back wards very fast. I don’t remember my feet touching the ground. The animal that was with me then turned into something resembling a dog and began attacking the shadow children. I remember it pulling pieces off of them and spitting them out on the ground. It looked like they would have been chunks of flesh, but they were instead pieces of shadow.

I woke feeling super scared and with the enduring vision of that demonic smiling face. I was terrified. My heart was going ninety miles a minute and I felt a heaviness all around me. My face was VERY hot. It was radiating heat, but there was no heat source in the room. It hadn’t gotten very cold yet that night, so I hadn’t turned the heater on. I wake up several times during the night normally. I never sleep through the night anymore so I usually wind up turning the heater on during the night.

The rest of the room was kind of chilly, so I covered up my daughter and got up out of bed. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I went to the living room and sat in my chair. I just prayed, took authority over any evil spirits that may have been around, and read the bible aloud. I stayed in the living room reading aloud until my spirit felt calmer.

The next night, I described the dream to a friend of mine who is a dream interpreter. She thinks that I may have had an Out Of Body Experience and, from our long talk, she thinks that I may have been having them for years and thinking that they were bad dreams. This is something that I have suspected, but never really accepted since traditional Christianity says that they are part of witchcraft. I honestly don’t know how it is witchcraft and/or of the devil when I don’t know I’m doing it and can’t control when I do or don’t. I have lots of pleasant dreams in which I float around in and out of people’s houses. Those are accompanied by a warm and safe feeling.

Since this is happening again, I thought I would put here how I protect myself before I go to sleep. I pray something like this:

Heavenly Father,

In Jesus’ name, I put a hedge of protection around myself. (I then visualize the protective wall or bubble around myself.) I give my dreams to You. I give my body, spirit, and mind to You and pray that the Holy Spirit would protect my mind as I sleep. I pray that you would send angels to protect me. I ask this in Jesus’ name. Amen.

It’s a short prayer and it doesn’t have to go exactly that way, but everything has to be done in Jesus’ name, because like breaking the soul tie, it’s Jesus’ power that protects you not your own.

I will also make a page describing Out of Body Experiences (OBEs) and try to find how one is supposed to protect oneself or to control them. The link will be at the top of this blog.

Merry Part and Blessings Be!