Invocation of the Goddess Kali

I found this article on The Way of The Witch website. They have much more information to check out. I highly recommend going there.

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Invoking the goddess Kali

     Kali, also called Black Mother, is a powerful Hindu goddess known for bringing about endings and transformation.  “The death of the old makes way for creation of the new,” she reminds us.


An energetic presence I once resisted, I’ve now come to embrace Kali and the forward moving, forceful power she brings. Her energy is exceptional for clearing away blocks and stagnation.  She will push you to end unproductive and destructive cycles and clear the way for new paths.

Those who choose to call on Kali for assistance will likely find that she rarely shows up in a subtle way.  Instead she manifests like a bolt of lightning ready to strike your core and shake you into awareness (a true gift if you’re really ready to embrace some serious change)! Her presence will no doubt propel you to find your courage, assess your life path, and delve head first into the great unknown.  She tells us, “We must surrender our fears in order to transform,” as she purposefully highlights what we hide from ourselves then connects us to the source of our deepest inner strength.

As with all beings you wish to assist you, call on this goddess by speaking her name and inviting her into your space using the mantra (or something similar) “goddess Kali, I invoke you.” Don’t forget to ground and center yourself before this one, as she has a tendency to throw people off balance!  Be sure to hold a clear intention of what it is you are seeking assistance for and allow time to fully integrate her energy into yours before thanking her and ending your session together.  You may well find that her energetic presence is with you for weeks and sometimes longer, depending on what she is assisting you with.

As always, may your gifts work toward your highest good, and the highest good of all involved.

Thank you Kali!
Namesté

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I also found this. It’s not strictly an “invocation”, so to speak, but when I was in a lot of serious emotional pain I read this out loud and it helped. So, I thought it might help someone else, too.

Here is the website: College of the Holy Cross

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On Managing Emotions and Why I Did Not Participate in the Hexing/Binding Ritual Against Donald Trump

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Regarding managing emotions, I count myself among many other people who struggle with this particular part of life. I had a graphic that I was going to post, but it seems as though it has gone missing along with so many other things I can’t seem to find in my house when I need them.

Anyway, the graphic goes something like this: As human beings we are vessels filled with all kinds of emotions, which is a good thing, in my humble opinion. It is the way we express our emotions and whether or not they are appropriate at the time/place we express them is the issue of the graphic.

An example: A parent with a 5-year-old child attempts to reason with their child about an action they have taken which the parent considers to be wrong (dragging the cat by one leg across the floor or by the tail; shouting at parent or other children; hitting or otherwise hurting another child are some examples of this). Of course, the child will be automatically on the defensive when/if the parent confronts the child about this behavior. The parent, in this instance has to choose what kind of emotion to display to their child: outright anger, which may lead to punitive punishment(s) or patience and calmness leading to a dialogue with the child which is done on their level of understanding so that the child understands that whatever action they have done was wrong and ways to figure out how to not make that mistake again. A parent may think that when this dialogue is done that their child understands and that the issue is done and that the child won’t make that same mistake again, however, that parent would be wrong. Studies have shown that the frontal lobe of the brain, which is the place where impulsiveness and understanding of the consequences of our actions live, does not fully mature until the mid- 20s. Here is a link to an MIT article explaining how this works. If and/or when the child repeats the same mistake over and over again can make the parent extremely frustrated and angry and this anger my overtake any previous ideas of speaking calmly with their child. The parent may resort to outright punishment (this may include time outs, spankings, or escalations of any kind of violence towards the child). (My belief is that any kind of violence towards a child, even spanking, is sort of a “gateway” to more and more mistreatment of the child. This is why I choose not to spank. I used to use time-outs, but that just fostered emotional distance between myself and my child. So, now, we use “time-ins” where we both sit quietly for about 5 minutes and talk about what we are feeling and what we can do that can further a healthy relationship between ourselves. Also, we discuss what behavior is inappropriate and what is appropriate depending on the circumstance. Always remembering to speak to my child in way that she can understand. Otherwise, I’m just speaking into the air, which provides further frustration for me and my child.)

Before any violence or yelling takes place towards the child (or any other person an individual may be having problems with), it behooves the person who is trying to manage their emotions in a healthy way to stop and take a breath or even walk away for a few minutes to try to get some perspective on what is really happening instead of having a knee-jerk emotional reaction. I’m not saying that emotions are bad. We were given emotions for a reason and in the right time and place,displaying one’s emotions is great and appropriate. For instance: I can’t watch two people get married, whether is man/woman, man/man, woman/woman or any other kind of marriage without tearing up a little or outright crying. It’s not that I’m sad. I just feel so happy at weddings and that is the way my emotion at that time is displayed and I feel that this is appropriate as long as I don’t go into some kind of loud wailing or do something else to take attention off the wedding and onto myself. That would be totally inappropriate.

Mostly the emotion I’m speaking of here is anger, but this can also be applied to thoughts which take us down the spiral into depression. When I worked in a Christian street ministry and taught bible study, I referred to this as “taking every thought captive to the obedience of the Christ” (2 Corinthians 10:5) Even though, at that time, I used this method in a bible study setting it does apply to every day life even if one does not espouse the Christian faith. When a thought comes along about my past, for instance, I can choose to either entertain that thought or cast it aside and opt for a more positive and/or more healthy thought pattern. Sometimes we choose to wallow in depression. I can’t say that I haven’t done this. I have. I tend to have the most trouble with this at night after my daughter has fallen asleep. Since I don’t have anything to distract me, it’s easier for those damaging thoughts to creep in. Again, the challenge here is to choose which thoughts to entertain. This can be a very hard process and it takes some time for a person to recognize certain thoughts as damaging and/or unhealthy before that person can begin to stop the cycle and take hold of their thoughts and choose to move toward a healthier place mentally and emotionally.

I am challenged with this on a daily basis several times a day. It so happens that my biggest challenges are dealing with anger, depression and anxiety. I want to model healthy behavior for my daughter, but am not always successful. So when I am not, I have made it a priority to try to explain to her, in a way that she can understand, that I am sorry for my bad/inappropriate behavior and that I will do my best to get better.

I don’t think I’m alone in struggling with this. In my humble opinion, managing one’s emotions is one of the things our society as a whole is seriously lacking. We don’t have very many models to go by. In our culture of instant gratification, if we (as a collective) perceive that we are not getting what we want we tend to lose our collective shit and jump right over the fence into proverbial left field.

This brings me to Donald Trump. This person is not a good model for managing emotions. He displays such a lack of emotional control that he can seem to be petty and childish at times. I don’t watch him speak very often as I try to stay away from the “news” because it depresses me, but seriously, my five-year-old has better control of her emotional outbursts.  I’m not going to get into Trump-bashing, but suffice it to say: I did not vote for him.

A few days ago, on February 4th to be exact, there was a call for all witches or anyone who practices the magickal arts to perform a hexing and/or a binding on Donald Trump. I did not participate in that and here’s why.

  1. I subscribe to the belief of the universal law of “3 x 3”. Meaning, whatever energy you put out you get back times three, be it positive or negative. I don’t believe in “black” or “white” or “gray” magick. I believe it is the intent of the person performing whatever spell or ritual is done that makes it either dark, light or gray. Everyone has some darkness, some light and some gray areas. So again: intent is what matters here. If I had done a hexing or binding on Donald Trump, I would have invited that energy to come back and basically punch me in the face. Hard.
  2. I recently learned, after performing many binding spells, that whatever you bind is bound to you. A few years ago, out of desperation and fear for my life, I performed a binding ritual with a mirror or “bounce back” effect in it. Meaning that I bound the person from hurting me or my child and should that person attempt any harm towards me or my child that all the energy that was put into those actions or thoughts would, in effect, “bounce back” on that person. It’s sort of like a hex, but not overtly so because it all depends on how much negative energy that person puts out towards the caster of the binding spell. Now, after about 4 years, I realize that this person hardly ever leaves my thoughts. The hard part is that I do not want to think about this person, because I don’t want to draw that person’s thoughts towards me or my child. After some serious meditation on this issue and doing some research, I realized that as long as I keep this person bound with the spell, this person is bound to me because of the spell I did. I think it goes without saying that I do not, in any way, wish to bound in any sort of fashion (spiritual or otherwise) to Donald Trump. So, I left that alone.
  3. Whether for good or ill, Donald Trump is our president now. I believe that if he wasn’t meant to be in that position for some reason or other, that he would not be there. I don’t believe in coincidences or “luck”. I believe everything happens (or doesn’t happen) for a reason. I may not always understand that reason, but I don’t want to mess with what the universe has planned for Donald Trump. Also, and this may sound like it came directly from my mother, I believe that very soon he will have enough rope to metaphorically hang himself. I prefer to let him make his own messes and lie in his own bed rather than call on the spirits to do it for him. Again, I don’t want that energy to come back at me. I’m not judging anyone who participated. I think people, in general, should have the freedom to follow their beliefs. I follow mine. You follow yours. Live and let live.
  4. Finally, I don’t wish Donald Trump or his family any harm. I will, however, stock up on popcorn in anticipation of the day he makes his bed and then has to lay in it.

Meditation, Alan Watts and a Tarot Card Reading

 

I haven’t posted anything for awhile, so I want to apologize to my followers for that. It seems as though just when I get going and things in my life are getting ironed out, I get kicked in the throat. Not to be entirely pessimistic, but this cycle has been going on for most of my life. I’m not sure why and this is something that I’ve been meditating on nearly every day during my absence.

An online friend introduced me to a man by the name of Alan Watts. He has passed on, but his videos are still quite prevalent on You Tube and I have been listening to them almost every day since he was made known to me. He was a Buddist with Hindu leanings and I’m not, but what he talks about makes a lot of sense to me, not to mention the fact that listening to him makes me feel like I’ve just let go a breath that I’ve been holding for years and years. This has to be a positive thing.

Ok now on to my Tarot Reading of the Day:

The first card I drew was the Ace of Wands.

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This card represents new beginnings. You’ve planted your proverbial wand in the ground and from here there are many roads to choose. Since this card was drawn in the first position of a 4 card draw, my guides are telling me that this represents a point of time in the recent past. I’m not sure when. It could have been on Saturday when I finally committed to cleaning out my mother’s house. She died in October of 2015 of multiple heart attacks attributed to a congenital heart defect and COPD. Her death has been particularly hard on me, but on Saturday a friend of mine went with me to her house and I was able to get quite a bit packed up for donation to a local charity. This may be my new beginning. This is quite a positive card. My intuition is telling me that this card is telling me that I’m going in the right direction.

The second card that I drew was the Eight of Cups.

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This card symbolizes diving deep into the subconscious or searching spiritually. Diving deep into the waters of your belief system or deep self examination. It’s highly introspective. This is representative of what I said above about meditating daily and listening to Alan Watts. I’m trying to change myself for the better. In my humble opinion, if we don’t change, we get stale and our spirit suffers and grows small and still. I, for one, want my spirit to be alive and I want to lean into my spiritual gifts not only so that I can help myself, but also so that I can help others. This card represents where I am at the present moment.

The third card I drew was the reversed Five of Pentacles.

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This card shows a woman who is seemingly trapped in a bubble of her own inner pain. She doesn’t see the beauty around her because she is too focused on her own pain. However, I drew this card in reverse. So the reverse of this is true for me in the near future. This is a positive card in the reverse position (It can be seen as positive in the upright position as well. Showing a person that they are trapped in their own pain. Sometimes it’s good to get perspective on a situation so that we can move in a positive direction.) I hope that my world will open up and that I will have a chance to help others get out of their pain or at least begin to manage it. I believe this is one of the reasons I have incarnated in this place at this time: to help people ascend into the best version of themselves that they can be (This goes for myself as well.)

The fourth and last card I drew was the major arcana card, The Sun.

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This is a very positive card and since it is situated in the last position in the four card draw, it represents not my near future, but a future that is possible for me further down my time line. It is showing me that a dawn will come after the darkest period of my life I’ve experienced so far in my life. It indicates fulfillment as well. All I’ve really ever wanted out of my life is to be as content and happy as I can in whatever situation I find myself in. It’s hard to be an optimist when all you see around you is darkness and pain. I know that all too well. However, this card gives me hope that the sun will again shine on mine and my daughter’s lives and that our deepest heart’s desires will be fulfilled. This rekindles my hope, which has been suffering for the last year and a half (basically since my mother died).

I hope this post was interesting to ya’ll. If there are any questions or help that I can give, please comment and I will answer you as quickly as I can. I realize that what’s going on in my life isn’t really that interesting or that important to anyone else but me, however I hope that the tarot card meanings were informative and helpful to ya’ll.

I want to thank everyone who comments and follows me. It is truly an honor.

Blessed Be.

Tarot Card of the Day: Two of Pentacles and Daily Meditation on Wisdom

Upright Two of Pentacles Tarot Card Meanings

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In the Two of Pentacles is an individual whose consciousness, represented by the waters, is tossed by seemingly conflicting interests. While the Ace of Pentacles represents the beginnings of a new business or financial venture, the Two represents the need to balance that venture with other important areas of life such as family, friends, and even our own physical, mental, and spiritual well-being. This card indicates the necessity for balance between opposing desires and interests. Life will always be uncertain, yet if you can produce balance and harmony among all the demands upon you, you will ultimately live happily and in prosperity.

Thus, the Two of Pentacles serves as a reminder to remain alert, agile and patient as you attempt to juggle your family, your friends, work, finances, health and new challenges. You need to be very clear on your priorities and where you want to invest your time and energy. There is a tendency to be distracted by day-to-day affairs and general busy-ness, so prioritising your activities and carefully managing your time is essential.

The Two of Pentacles brings you back down to earth and reminds you to not only focus on your broader life goals but to also make sure your day-to-day affairs are in order. This is a card of good time management and financial management, ensuring that your bills are paid on time, that you keep a record of all your appointments and daily commitments, etc. It may sound tedious having to focus your attention on these more mundane issues but this card reminds you that sometimes getting on top of your daily affairs is as important as pursuing your broader life goals.

Sometimes, the Two of Pentacles can indicate that there are problems and difficulties in the future. There may be obstacles erected which hinder the attainment of what you wish to pursue or obtain in life. The situation may cause undue worry and again, you will be required to juggle your priorities and manage your time effectively to stay on top of the situation.

Similarly, the Two of Pentacles predicts change. You need to be able to cope with change, remaining flexible and adaptable in your approach. Rather than putting all your eggs in one basket, you may be better to keep two or more things going at once so you have the luxury of choice, should one option fall through. You must stay centred while you stay flexible and keep informed. Look for new possibilities, be open to change and go with the flow as best you can.


Daily Meditation 
Walk with the wise and be wise; walk with the stupid and be misled.~Proverbs
We may not believe we are wise. We may ask, “how could I be wise if I got myself into so much trouble and pain? How can I be wise if I now need the help of others to stay out of trouble and feel less pain?”

But what is wisdom? Very simply, it is good sense. it is the ability to make a choice that will be good for us. No one is born with wisdom. It is learned through trial and error. Just a glance into our past will assure us we have certainly had our share of trials and errors.
Have I made wise decisions today? How can I access my Higher Power to gain wisdom?

Right now, I have so much going on. I have three blogs, an Etsy site that I am selling hand made crochet items on, my child, trying to move into a place of our own, money issues, etc… I feel sometimes like the man in the Two of Pentacles standing on a rolling ball juggling a bunch of other balls and if I make one misstep, everything collapses and I fall. I am endeavoring to access my Higher Power daily (multiple times) through a prayer dialogue so that I can make wise decisions about all that is going on in my life. I have to say that I believe right now that if I relied on my own strength, none of this could be accomplished. What wisdom I have gained in my life, though it may be greater than some others, is nothing compared to the wisdom of the One. This seems to be a lesson that I have to keep relearning. I wish that I didn’t have to keep coming back to this place where I have to learn to trust all over again, but it seems to be the nature of me and it may be a cycle that I need to find out how to break. All I can say right now, though, is I am very thankful for the steadfastness and immovability of the One. Otherwise, I would be screwed.

Simple Blessing Spell and Drawing a Line in the Spiritual Sand

~Three Times Blessed~

Be blessed.

Be blessed.

Be truly blessed.

By these triple words.

By this triple touch.

Be blessed by the Goddess.

By growth.

By fulness

By the dark and by the light.

By Maiden, Mother and Crone.

Be blessed.

Be blessed.

Be three times blessed.

By the threefold Goddess be blessed.

 

I used this recently. Let me recount why. I have recently renewed a friendship from high school so we have been texting and talking on the phone quite a bit lately. In one of our conversations, she confided to me that her sister’s husband had touched all three of her girls sexually. He was trying to rape them, but they are all such strong girls that they knew what he was doing was wrong and shoved him off. Then they told their parents. Not surprisingly, their dad wanted to take the man out into the bayou and feed him to the alligators. Their mother, my friend, even though she is very protective of her children, forgave him when they had a conversation about it. She knows that pedophilia is a sickness of the mind and spirit so she was willing to forgive him, but made it very clear that he was NOT to do it again. Well, that same night, he tried again. He is now no longer welcome around them and he never comes around. Honestly, I was very surprised that they didn’t press charges and I told her as much. She told me that since her daughters were so young at the time that she didn’t want them to have to go through the pain of a trial and having to recount their experiences over and over ad nauseum. While I can understand that, I told her that someday he would go on to molest other girls and that he probably had a long list of girls he has already molested and who’s mother’s felt exactly the same way she did about their children and that is why he was out and able to abuse hers.

Since I am living in a house that she and her husband own and her family lives in the same town I do, I asked her how likely I was to get a visit from her sister’s husband. She responded that they actually live a couple of hours away and don’t come here normally unless there is a special occasion. Well, I got a visit last week from this sister who brought along her daughter who is about the same age as my daughter. My first thought was, “Oh God, he has probably already gotten to her.” As a survivor of sexual abuse, I am aware that I have a knee-jerk reaction to any hint of sexual abuse so I tried to reign that in. During the time they were here, I watched her and knew fairly quickly that she was at least partially autistic. She tip-toe walks; she can’t sit still for more than a few minutes at a time; she doesn’t speak much; and has absolutely no impulse control. I realize that she’s only three and impulse control is somewhat touch and go at that age, but what I’m talking about is that she came in my house and literally dragged nearly everything I have out from every single room. I couldn’t sit down to talk with her mother for more than five minutes at a time for having to follow her around and pick up after her or keep her from hurting herself. Her mother didn’t seem to have a problem with any of this. She looked at me like she pitied me.

At one point during their time here, I had settled the two girls in my bedroom on my bed watching a Disney animated movie. My daughter suddenly comes out and says, “Mommy, A— is naked.” I went into my bedroom to find her nude except for her shirt laying on my bed. When I asked her why she said she was “ready to take a nap”. This really disturbed me not only because it seemed so normal for her to do, but also because her mother seemed yet again to have absolutely no problem with this behavior. Again, I realize she’s only three and that three year olds love to be naked. My daughter does, but for her to JUST take off her shorts and panties and get in my bed like it was a matter of course worried me. I was going to speak with her mother about it, but I didn’t have time. Right after this incident, her mother packed her up and left.

I cried myself to sleep that night. I didn’t have any proof, but my gut instinct was telling me that that little girl was living a miserable life. Not only is she ONLY three years old AND autistic, but her father was most likely molesting her already at such a tender age. My mind went down a very long list of possible mental disorders (thank you Abnormal Psych) and my heart ached because I knew that the love she felt was twisted and warped. The next day, with a swollen face and still thinking about the incident, I prayed and prayed about it. Then a cried some more. This time not because I was sad, but because I was angry. I was angry with her dad first for what I was thinking he had done to her and secondly, I was angry with her mother for seemingly being the enabler.

I searched online to find a spell to bless and protect her. I found this one and some others that I liked among which I really like this one which draws a very strong line in the spiritual sand saying “if you do thusandsuch this will happen”. Also, it has a “bounce back” feature that I like so that in case he does more harm to her it will come back to him in spades. I will post it here for y’all just in case someone feels the need to use it. The last three sentences I changed to fit my own situation. The original one had the f-bomb in it, which I don’t like to use in spells.

Warning Spell

Blood turn black and flesh turn blue.

I will curse you if you force me to.

By the left hand and the unclean food.

I will curse your lies.

I will call down a plague of flies.

Blood go black and flesh go blue.

Evil from A— and back to you.

Her soul clean and yours on fire.

You touch her and you will get burned, liar.

 

I normally don’t advocate using spells like this since it is rather dark and threatens a curse, but in cases like this where the perpetrator is unrepentant, I feel that justice needs to be served. I recommend doing this in the middle of a salt circle or cast a circle and a pentacle with your wand/finger. This is what I did. I don’t have an actual wand, so I cast the circle and pentagram with my finger and visualized them strongly so that I could see them before my physical eyes. After that I focused all of my anger, rage and hurt into the words of the spell and thought about A—-‘s father and herself. Basically, I put all my energy and emotion into it, which is necessary for any spell to be effective. I also visualized a white translucent light around A— to protect her and a thick, golden, braided rope coming from her crown chakra up to the heavens to connect her with The Source and then I visualized thick tree roots coming from her feet and growing way down into the earth and wrapping themselves around the center of it to ground her. I have also added her to my daily prayers right after I pray for myself and my own daughter.

I thought about reporting this to DHS, but I have no actual proof of wrongdoing and I am living in a house that belongs to my friend who is her sister. I don’t know how she would take it if I reported him to DHS. I don’t plan on being her long so the first thing I do when I move will be to call and at least report him so that the paperwork will be on his record.