Dream of Calendars- 2/24/14

Last night I was spiritually attacked after giving a very negative tarot reading to a person who, I found out later, had demonic spirits attached to her: an incubus and a vampire demon. Those are the only two I know of. I severed contact with her because of the attack.

I did a past, present and future reading for her. The past card was the Four of Pentacles which symbolizes someone who is selfish in every way; taking and never giving; perhaps hoarding something like wealth for fear that it will disappear or someone will take it; someone who hates and resents change; someone who only has one view of the world; someone who has cut themselves off from everyone due to their selfishness and someone who is in denial of the things right in front of them. The present card was Temperence, but it was inverted, suggesting of someone who is not in harmony with anything; who has no equilibrium; no moderation of extremes or self restraint; I got the feeling that this person’s personality was manic and all over the place. Her future card was the Two of Swords suggesting that in her near future, she would be in a weird lock step dance with those around her trying to find some grace, but never getting there. She would never compromise and would still be in denial and those around her would find her hard, stubborn and unyielding.

She told me that I was in no way right about this. That my whole reading of her had been wrong. By this time, I had begun to feel the first of the attack so I knew that I was right and that she was totally in denial just as the cards said that she would be. She got very angry with me so I severed contact with her and suffered through her attack for the rest of the night and into the next morning.

I tried to sleep, but only had dreams of calendars floating through space. I did some research on dreams of calendars and discovered that calendars in dreams can signify a date looming that you’d rather not think about; can mean that you are a very organized person; also can mean a gradual reduction of worries. Since I’m not very organized I guess I’m going to go with a looming date I’m not looking forward to and/or a gradual reduction of worries. I have been meaning to perform the binding spell again since the last full moon, but haven’t done it. I had to get supplies and then I bought a black onyx and a rainbow moonstone ring so those had to be cleansed for 72 hours in the freezer so….I don’t know why I’m procrastinating. I should be on top of this so that the stalker will not move against me.

Daily Card Draw: Six of Cups- inverted

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If this card had been drawn upright, it would have been a reminder of childhood innocence, imagination, good intentions, noble impulses and simple pleasures.  As it was drawn inverted, I think it is reminding me to see the world through my daughter’s eyes and not to discount her point of view out of hand because it is valid.

The cards have been off today. Last night, I read for someone who had several demons attached to her and one was very familiar to me. It new that I was open to read her cards and it used that moment to attack me spiritually. I got shaky, anxious, nauseous and felt like I had a rock in the pit of my stomach. Afterwards, I prayed, read scripture, took authority over the demon (bound it and rebuked in in Jesus’ name and sent it on it’s way), did a spell to rebound negative energy, took some medicine for anxiety and still could not sleep. I had strange dreams and just tossed and turned. I finally got up about 4:00am and re-saged my entire apartment, including all closets, corners, drawers and cabinets. After that, I was able to sleep some, but still woke up about 9:30am this morning. When I think about it now, I still get an anxious knot in my stomach.

The attack was not pleasant, but I did learn a lesson and that lesson is this: pay attention to your inner voice and when you feel something off during a reading either stop or close off psychically for your own protection. I won’t have something like that around my daughter. As much as I pity this person for being plagued so by demons, it entered my house and I cannot have that. My daughter is more important than anything else and she comes first before anyone or anything.

The Daily Affirmation of Faith

This is an affirmation of faith based on scripture. It is very helpful in attempting to determine which area (s) of a person’s life (or your own life) are subject to demonic activity. If they stumble, stutter, freeze up, start crying, get distracted, get scared, laugh or display any other aversions to speaking the affirmations of faith then you can be fairly sure that there is something going on in that area of their life. That being said, you cannot force anyone to do something they don’t want to do. If a person says they are not ready then you must take them at their word and just keep praying for them until they are ready.  I am not a “devil behind every bush” person, but I won’t deny that they are present and seek to destroy people and their lives and families. I have first hand experience in this. I have included the scripture references in case anyone needs them.

Today I deliberately choose to submit myself fully to God as he has made Himself known to me through the Holy Scripture. In this day I will not judge God, his work, myself or others on the basis of feelings or circumstances.

1. I recognize by faith that the triune God is worthy of all honor, praise and worship as the Creator, Sustainer and End of all things. I confess that God, as my Creator, made me for himself. In this day I therefore choose to live for Him. (Revelations 5:9; Isaiah 43:1, 7, 21; Revelations 4:11)

2. I recognize by faith that God loved me and chose me in Jesus Christ before time began. (Ephesians 1:1-7)

3. I recognize by faith that God has proven his love to me in sending His Son to die in my place, in whom every provision has already been made for my past, present and future needs through His representative work, and that I have been quickened, raised, seated with Jesus Christ in the heavenlies, and anointed with the Holy Spirit. (Romans 5:6-11; 8:28-39; Philippians 1:6; 4:6-7, 13, 19; Ephesians 1:3, 2:5-6; Acts 2:1-4, 33)

4. I recognize by faith that God has accepted me since I have received Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour; that He has forgiven me; adopted me into His family assuming every responsibility for me; given me eternal life; applied the perfect righteousness of Christ to me so that I am now justified; made me complete in Christ; and offers Himself to me as my daily sufficiency through prayer and the decisions of faith.  (John 1:12; Ephesians 1:6; Ephesians 1:7; John 17:11, 17; Ephesians 1;5; Philippians 1:6; John 3:36; 1 John 5: 9-13; Romans 5:1; 8:3-4; 10:4; Colossians 2:10; 1 Corinthians 1:30; Colossians 1:27; Galatians 2:20; John 14:13-14; Matthew 21:22; Romans 6:1-19; Hebrews 4:1-3, 11)

5. I recognize by faith that the Holy Spirit has baptized me into the Body of Christ; sealed me; anointed me for life and service; seeks to lead me into a deeper walk with Jesus Christ; and to fill my life with Himself. (1 Corinthians 12:13; 1:13-14; Acts 1:8; John 7:37-39; John 14:16-18; 15:26-27; 16:13-15; Romans 8:11-16; Ephesians 5:18)

6. I recognize by faith that only God can deal with sin and only God can produce holiness of life. I confess that in my salvation my part was only to receive Him and that He dealt with my sin and saved me. Now I confess that in order to live a holy life, I can only surrender to His will and receive Him as my sanctification; trusting Him to do whatever may be necessary in my life, without and within, so I may be enabled to live today in purity, freedom, rest and power for His glory. (John 1:12; 1 Corinthians 1:30; 2 Corinthians 9:8; Galatians 2:20; Hebrews 4:9; 1 John 5:4; Jude 24)

Having confessed that God is worthy of all praise, that only God can deal with sin and produce holiness of life, I again recognize my total dependence upon Him and submission to Him. I accept the truth that praying in faith is absolutely necessary for the realization of the will and grace of God in my daily life. (1 John 5:14-15; James 2:6; 4:2-3; 5:16-18; Philippians 4:6-7; Hebrews 4:1-13; 11:6, 24-28)

Recognizing that faith is a total response to God by which the daily provisions the lord has furnished in Himself are appropriated, I therefore make the following decisions of faith:

1. For this day, I make the decision of faith to surrender wholly to the authority of God as He has revealed Himself in the Scripture-to obey Him. I confess my sin, face the sinful reality of my old nature, and deliberately choose to walk in the light, in step with Christ throughout the hours of this day. (Hebrews 3:6, 13, 15; 4:7; Romans 6;16-20; Philippians 2:12-13; 1 John 1:7, 9)

2. For this day I make the decision of faith to surrender wholly to the as revealed in the Scripture-to believe Him. I accept His word into my heart and mind. I now believe that since I have confessed my sin He has forgiven and cleansed me. I accept at full value His Word of promise to be my sufficiency and rest and will conduct myself accordingly. ( 1 John 1:9; Exodus 33:1; 1 Corinthians 1:30; 2 Corinthians 9:8; Philippians 4:19)

3. For this day I make the decision of faith to recognize that God has made every provision so that I may fulfill His will and calling. Therefore, I will not make any excuse for my sin and failure. (1 Thessalonians 5:24).

3. For this day I make the decision of faith deliberately to receive from God that provision which He has made for me. I renounce all self-effort to live the Christian life and to perform God’s service; renounce all sinful praying which asks God to change circumstances and people so that I may be more spiritual; renounce all drawing back from the work of the Holy Spirit within and the call of God without; and renounce all non-biblical motives, goals and activities with serve my sinful pride.

4. I now sincerely receive Jesus Christ as my sanctification, particularly as my  as my cleansing from the old nature and ask the Holy Spirit to apply to me the work of Christ accomplished for me in the crucifixion. In cooperation with and in dependence upon HIm I obey the command to “put off the old man”. (Romans 6:1-4; 1 Corinthians 1:30; Galatians 6:14: Ephesians 4:22)

5. I now sincerely receive Jesus Christ as my sanctification particularly as my enablement moment by moment to live above sin and ask the Holy Spirit to apply to me the work of the resurrection so that I may walk in newness of life. I confess that only God can deal with my sin and only God can produce holiness and the fruit of the Spirit in my life. In cooperation with and in dependence upon Him, I obey the command to “put on the new man”. (Romans 6:1-4; Ephesians 4:24)

6. I now sincerely receive Jesus Christ as my deliverance from Satan and take my position with Him in the heavenlies asking the Holy Spirit to apply to me the work of the ascension. In His name I submit myself to God and stand against all of Satan’s influence and subtlety. In cooperation with and in dependence upon God I obey the command to “resist the devil”. (Ephesians 1:20-23; 2:5; 4:27; 6:10-18; Colossians 1:13; Hebrews 2:14-15; James 4:7; 1 Peter 3:22; 5:8-9)

7. I now sincerely receive the Holy Spirit as my anointing for every aspect of life and service for today. I fully open my life to Him to fill me afresh in obedience to the command to “be filled with the Holy Spirit”. (Ephesians 5:18; John 7:37-39; 14:16-17; 15:26-27; 16:7-15; Acts 1:8)

Having made this confession and these decisions of faith, I now receive God’s promised rest for this day. Therefore, I relax in the trust of faith knowing that in the moment of temptation, trial or need the Lord Himself will be there as my strength and sufficiency. (1 Corinthians 10:13)

~Mark I. Bubeck-The Adversary: The Christian Versus Demonic Activity

Nightmares and Out of Body Experiences

The night before last, I fell asleep after having prayed and “hedged” myself with protection. I have had to do that every night since the early nineties, otherwise, I am plagued by nightmares and not just any old nightmares like running from the neighbor’s angry dog. My nightmares are vivid, technicolor, very dark, and very insidious. They usually involve me being attacked in some way by a demonic force.

I remember this happening since my childhood. Sometimes, I would have nightmares and wake up feeling like I had had intercourse, but knowing that I had not. I have woken from nightmares smelling foul odors like rotting flesh and have felt things crawl over me. I have also woken from nightmares and felt dark presences with me. I have even seen a figure sitting on a bed across from me who was shaped like a person, but was a black shadow sucking in all the available light.

When I began to hedge my sleep in my early twenties, these things began to happen with much less frequency. For the first time in my life, I was able to sleep soundly and without waking up terrified several times a night. I have done it for the majority of nights ever since. I rarely get nightmares and/or night time visitations anymore.

I have been having them again recently. The first was a couple of weeks ago. I will describe it here:

I was in a morgue-type setting. It was chilly. Everything white, bright and cold. I saw a nude female body on a slab in front of me. She had long, blonde hair which was matted with blood and dirt. Her body was twisted in such a way that she was laying partially on her side. She was cold and stiff with rigor mortis. The next thing I saw was her back. Someone had carved into her back the word “whore” over and over again. It was there so many times that there was hardly any place on her back where there was skin that was not carved. My eyes moved down her back to her buttocks and I noticed that her legs were spread apart vulgarly. I saw that where her genitals and anus had been that there was only one big hole: gaping, shredded and bloody. I knew in my heart that she had been raped repeatedly over a long period. The next thing I noticed were her thighs. Someone had made a deep cut from her crotch to her knee on the inside of both thighs. The cuts were so deep that I could see the layers of skin and fat all the way down to the bone. The cuts had then been sewn loosely with black thread in a cris-cross pattern that reminded me of corset laces.

Update: (February 13, 2014) I did some researching and found out that, according to Jungian psychology, seeing yourself dead in a dream can mean that a part of yourself is dead or dying and that you are moving on to something better or something positive. It could be that the woman on the slab in the morgue was a representation of my old self. How I used to see myself. Now that I am moving forward spiritually, emotionally and in my physical life she could be a representation of the negative things I’m leaving behind. Originally, I thought that the reason I dreamt that was that the person who is working against me felt such negativity towards me that he projected it on me and it manifested itself in my dream. This also could be the case since I have .been dealing with a lot of negative energy from him recently. He is one of those really bad people I got involved with during the last self destruct spiral I experienced due to the loss of my fiance.

That is the extent of that dream. I woke up very disturbed. The feeling of being ill at ease stayed with me for a few days. I had another dream that night, but right now, I can’t remember what it was.

The night before last, I had another bad one:

I dreamt that I was searching for a man.

I remember someone in the dream, who wasn’t physically present, say that this man had killed forty eight people. I went into this man’s house. I think I was on a ghost hunt, because I remember feeling strongly that he was a spirit and that he didn’t like his possessions, which were still in the house, moved.

I don’t remember entering through any kind of doorway. I just remember being there. I was standing in a darkened hallway and reached out to flip the light switch. It came on but only dimly and flickered. I remember knowing my way around this house like I had been there before. My favorite shawl was even hanging on a peg in the hallway. I remember this because I took it off the peg and put it on.

I knew where to reach out for the light switches even though I was mostly in the dark. I turned around to see a room on my left. I did not want to go in there because it was dark and the actual light switch I knew was all the way across the room, but I knew there there was a pull string to turn the light on so I pulled it, but it never came on.

I was terrified, but I turn back down the hallway and saw a room to my right. I KNEW that if I went in there that I would be in more danger and I knew that there was a light switch right inside the doorway, but I didn’t even stick my hand in there. I continued down the hallway and went through an open doorway and  up about three steps into a living room area that was very dimly lit. I really really wanted to get out of the house, but I happened to look into a room around the corner and to the left of the living room and saw a demonic face looking back at me smiling. It was so scary. I then was back in the living room area frantically searching for the front door. There was a fireplace directly across the room that I thought was the front door, but I was mistaken since was so frightened that I became confused and felt like I was spinning in circles and dizzy. I finally managed the front door and go outside.

Once outside, there was an animal with me that first appeared to be a cat. I walked down the walkway from the house to the street where I saw other houses. It was a residential neighborhood and, of course, it was dark out. I turned right and started walking up the side walk when I saw what appeared to be two or three children on the other side of the street walking towards me. As I walked they kept getting closer. As they got closer, I saw that they had no faces and that the one in the front was eating something that looked like a small leg, but again, I could see no mouth. They looked like shadows. Whatever light was around them was sucked up by them as they moved.

They started running towards me and I started running away from them, but I didn’t turn around. I ran backwards, or rather, I floated back wards very fast. I don’t remember my feet touching the ground. The animal that was with me then turned into something resembling a dog and began attacking the shadow children. I remember it pulling pieces off of them and spitting them out on the ground. It looked like they would have been chunks of flesh, but they were instead pieces of shadow.

I woke feeling super scared and with the enduring vision of that demonic smiling face. I was terrified. My heart was going ninety miles a minute and I felt a heaviness all around me. My face was VERY hot. It was radiating heat, but there was no heat source in the room. It hadn’t gotten very cold yet that night, so I hadn’t turned the heater on. I wake up several times during the night normally. I never sleep through the night anymore so I usually wind up turning the heater on during the night.

The rest of the room was kind of chilly, so I covered up my daughter and got up out of bed. I couldn’t go back to sleep. I went to the living room and sat in my chair. I just prayed, took authority over any evil spirits that may have been around, and read the bible aloud. I stayed in the living room reading aloud until my spirit felt calmer.

The next night, I described the dream to a friend of mine who is a dream interpreter. She thinks that I may have had an Out Of Body Experience and, from our long talk, she thinks that I may have been having them for years and thinking that they were bad dreams. This is something that I have suspected, but never really accepted since traditional Christianity says that they are part of witchcraft. I honestly don’t know how it is witchcraft and/or of the devil when I don’t know I’m doing it and can’t control when I do or don’t. I have lots of pleasant dreams in which I float around in and out of people’s houses. Those are accompanied by a warm and safe feeling.

Since this is happening again, I thought I would put here how I protect myself before I go to sleep. I pray something like this:

Heavenly Father,

In Jesus’ name, I put a hedge of protection around myself. (I then visualize the protective wall or bubble around myself.) I give my dreams to You. I give my body, spirit, and mind to You and pray that the Holy Spirit would protect my mind as I sleep. I pray that you would send angels to protect me. I ask this in Jesus’ name. Amen.

It’s a short prayer and it doesn’t have to go exactly that way, but everything has to be done in Jesus’ name, because like breaking the soul tie, it’s Jesus’ power that protects you not your own.

I will also make a page describing Out of Body Experiences (OBEs) and try to find how one is supposed to protect oneself or to control them. The link will be at the top of this blog.

Merry Part and Blessings Be!

Putting on the Armor of God and Rebounding Negative Energies and Spirits

Eph 6:11 Put on the whole armor of God so that you may be able to stand firm against the devil’s strategies.
Eph 6:12 For our struggle is not against human opponents, but against rulers, authorities, cosmic powers in the darkness around us, and evil spiritual forces in the heavenly realm.
Eph 6:13 For this reason, take up the whole armor of God so that you may be able to take a stand whenever evil comes. And when you have done everything you could, you will be able to stand firm.
Eph 6:14 Stand firm, therefore, having fastened the belt of truth around your waist, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness,
Eph 6:15 and being firm-footed in the gospel of peace.
Eph 6:16 In addition to having clothed yourselves with these things, having taken up the shield of faith, with which you will be able to put out all the flaming arrows of the evil one,
Eph 6:17 also take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.
Eph 6:18 Pray in the Spirit at all times with every kind of prayer and request. Likewise, be alert with your most diligent efforts and pray for all the saints.

Continuing with this week’s theme of protection, I have added to my repertoire of prayers and spells, a prayer to “put on” the armor of God according to the Scripture.

The Armor of God Prayer

Heavenly Father, I want to be obedient to You. I know that it is necessary for me to put on the armor You gave me. I do so now and praise You because You gave me all I need to stand in victory against Satan and his kingdom. Give me the wisdom to know Satan’s plans against me. Enable me to wrestle in victory against wicked spirits, princes, powers and rulers who battle against me.

I am happy to put on the armor of God and by faith put it on. As spiritual protection, I take the girdle of truth. I take Him who is truth as my strength and protection. I reject Satan’s lies and deceiving ways. I desire only to believe and know the truth. Thank You that Satan can’t stand against the bold use of the truth.

Thank You for the breastplate of righteousness. I put it on as my protection. I thank You for the righteousness which is mine by faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. I bring the righteousness of my Lord Jesus Christ against all of Satan’s work against me. I know Satan has to retreat from before the righteousness of God.

Thank You, Lord Jesus, for the sandals of peace you gave me. I desire to stand firm on the solid rock of peace You gave me. I claim peace with God through justification. I desire the peace of God which touches my emotions and feelings through prayers and sanctification. Thank You as I walk with You that, as the God of peace, You are putting Satan under my feet. Thank You that You haven’t given me the spirit of fear, but of love, power and a sound mind. Thank You that Satan cannot stand against Your peace.

Lord, I lift up the shield of faith against all the missiles that Satan and his demons hurl at me. I know You are my shield and in Your incarnation and crucifixion You took the arrows of Satan for me. By faith, I claim Your protection. I am willing that any fiery darts of Satan You wish to touch me should do so only for Your glory. Thank You that You are my perfect shield.

I know my mind is a target of Satan’s deceiving ways. I take the helmet of salvation. I know that Jesus is my salvation. I invite His mind to be in me. Let me think His thoughts, feel His love and compassion and let Him lead me. May my salvation defeat all satanic thoughts that come to my mind.

I take the sword of the spirit, God’s Word. I know it is truthful. I believe it and live in it’s truths. Grant me the love of Your Word, which comes from the Holy Spirit. Forgive me for neglecting Your Word. Help me to memorize it and use it against Satan and his plans. Thank You that Satan has to retreat from Your Word used against him. Thank You, Lord, for prayers and help me to keep this armor well oiled with prayers. I trust the Holy Spirit to enable me, to intercede for me and through me.

All these petitions, intercessions and praises I offer to the Lord Jesus Christ, the living God and my Savior. Amen.

Just a quick note: no one has to pray the way I do. I only offer these prayers as a sample of what someone could do. Your relationship with God is your own and you should feel free to pray however you feel comfortable.

I will begin, as of today, to add this prayer to my daily prayer time starting with the Warfare Prayer. If you can’t tell already, I’m really big on spiritual protection. I don’t like to be blindsided by surprises. Surprise me with cake and presents, not spiritual attacks.

Yesterday, I did the simple binding spell I wrote about here. I wrote the person’s name down on a sheet of paper all the while focusing on that person and thinking about all the harm that person has done to me, effectively putting it into the writing on the paper and the paper itself. Here’s where I veered off a bit from what I wrote yesterday: I felt my mind lead me to chant a simple binding spell while writing this person’s name. I chanted this:

(Insert name), I bind you from doing harm. Harm to yourself and and harm to others.

I chanted this over and over while writing the name on the paper and focusing on trapping any negative energy from this person within the paper and the writing. I then folded the paper, still chanting, as small as I could, put it in a plastic ziploc baggie, filled the baggie with water and then put it in the freezer.

I also did a spell yesterday to send back any evil and/or negative energies this person has sent to me. They would go right back to this person instead of landing and sticking on me. I will list it here in case anyone needs it. Please be sure you cast your circle and pentacle beforehand.

I visualized myself in the middle of my cast circle and pentacle and with three rings of purple light around me: one at my feet, one at my waist and one at my head.

I said this:

Protect me with all your might oh goddess gracious day and night.

Protect me with all your might oh goddess gracious day and night.

Protect me with all your might oh goddess gracious day and night.

So mote it be.

By dragon’s light this (insert month) January night I call to thee to give me your might.

By the power of three I conjure thee to protect all that surrounds me.

So mote it be.

So mote it be.

So mote it be.

(Now point wand/finger to the sky)

Terra, Ignis, Aqua all three.

Elements of astral I summon thee.

Earth by Divinity.

Divinity by Earth.

Give my enemy the power to see the strength of the elements by my side.

No rules magic I shall abide.

Now when My enemy meets his downfall this spell shall have no power at all.

In no way shall this spell reverse or place upon me any curse.

So mote it be.

(now lower wand/finger)

Thrice around the circles bound sink all evil to the ground.

Thrice around the circles bound sink all evil to the ground.

Thrice around the circles bound sink all evil to the ground.

So mote it be.

I then closed the circle and thanked the spirits for attending me and send them on their way with blessings.

I am also continuing with my goal of thinking only positive thoughts and pushing away any negative thoughts that come into my mind and, with prayer, asking the Holy Spirit to replace those negative thoughts with positive thoughts from God. I don’t want to unintentionally draw any more negative energies into my life and I want to cleanse from myself what I have already done. I think this is really important. Any spiritual battle is fought and/or won/lost in the mind.

Today, I will be saying the prayer of St. Micheal the Archangel and putting salt in my doorways, windows and under my bed. I may even cast a perpetual circle and pentacle under my bed. I will post about that later.

Merry part and Blessings Be!